Thursday, December 17, 2009

Home for the Holidays!

I love this time of year. I love seeeing the Christmas lights and the tree all decorated and lit up. Coming off a crazy semester that seemed extremely busy, it is nice to be able to just relax. Today as I was reading some books to Jason, it made me so happy. To have him sit on my lap and giggle as we roared like dinosaurs, warmed my heart so much. Later he came over and gave me a hug and said "I am so happy you're home". Aww I LOVE that kid. :) I am excited to spend the next 3 weeks with him and the rest of my family.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Pondering thoughts

I am sitting in my room right now, supposed to be writing a paper for self-defense, but rather pondering about a lot of things. It has been kind of a stressful day today. I have really been thinking a lot about why I am on 6west. What is my place on this floor? I know that my "official" title is assistant RA on minteam but I want to know my real purpose for being on this specific floor. Who should I be reaching out to? What am I doing wrong with my relationships on the floor? Why do I always end up in the drama? Should I just switch floors to get out of drama? These are the questions that have been running through my mind. I know that God has me here right now for a reason but I just can't pinpoint it right now. I have just been feeling very discouraged lately. I have been praying about these things for a while now and they are really on my heart. Pray for wisdom in the situation and that friendships won't be broken in the process.

More Than Useless...

I chose More Than Useless as the title for my blog because a lot of times I do feel useless in ministry. I feel as if I am not benefiting the kingdom but rather just getting in the way. More Than Useless is a Relient K song that I have loved for years and I really thought it describes my life right now.
I am in my Junior year at Moody but I still feel like I am trying to figure out where I belong and what God wants me to do. Sometimes I feel as if I am useless to ministry while I am here studying but then I am reminded that God has me here for a reason and I can do ministry in whatever comes my way. Ministry is not just my PCM(practical christian ministry) or at church, rather ministry can be right here on the floor where I live or just as I am out and about in the city. I am called to be a light for Christ and minister to those around me. As I start thinking about my internship for next summer, it is my prayer that God will stretch me in this attitude of being More Than Useless where ever I might be.